Hello! I wrote a blog post with this drawing as part. It was something that I had to write and learn from, but too personal to keep public. So I took it offline. Wanted to at least have the drawing up because I’ll keep posting them in order.
If you are a Christian, you know the rest of the Biblical quote in the title. I do too, even though (despite being raised as Catholic) I consider myself to be spiritual rather than religious. Nonetheless, it appeared in my thoughts yesterday. I was out for a walk on the most glorious day one could imagine – lovely warm autumn weather, sunny, the trees in the midst of their big colorful change. Just wonderful. There can be a stillness in a slow walk and I wanted to feel it. I did to some extent. I wanted to immerse myself in it. The chatter in my brain wouldn’t let me get there.
“Be still and know that I am God.”
A year ago, the glory of such a day wouldn’t even have registered with me. In the meantime, I’ve become closer to the stillness within. Although I usually just reach the edges of it, I know it’s real. It is my belief that this is where God is seen and understood.
I perhaps noticed it first through meditating. When I was able to keep physically quite still, I could feel the sense of peace. It seems to be expanding from there. I feel “present” more often than I used to. When I’m out for a walk, I notice wonder where I had not been seeing it – in “ordinary” leaves, perhaps, or a mushroom growing in a little natural nook. And so, I’m thrilled with the perfection of today’s drawing, which happened to be the next one in line to post.
Wishing you stillness, peace, and all the wonder arising from it; today and every day.
It’s been over 6 weeks since my 40-day Creative Journey ended. Although I’ve seen changes, I wasn’t convinced much big had happened, until this morning, when I woke up excited to start my day. This is a big deal to me, actually a huge deal, after years of low mood issues.
I’m still following a morning routine, aka “alignment practice,” as follows:
Meditating 15 minutes.
Enjoying a “single-task” cup of coffee.
Doing a few minutes of stretches while the coffee brews.
Drawing for 30 minutes.
Meditating for 20 minutes more.
I also take a walk for at least 25 minutes (almost) every day, although not always in the morning. It feels great to be consistent with some self-care items (meditating, exercise) and creating more polished drawings (perhaps over several days) for new designs.
Now, here’s a small sample of the positive results from my 40-day Creative Journey and beyond. I’ve been:
Eating much healthier,
Walking consistently as mentioned above,
Getting my house slowly and steadily neater and cleaner,
Approaching each day and week in a more organized way,
Feeling more confident about my designs,
Making steady progress toward creating new designs,
Feeling more productive each week, and
Waking up feeling better and better each morning.
Perhaps I’ll go more into detail about this at some point. For now, thanks for stopping by! I hope you are enjoying your own journey today.
First of all, even though I stopped making posts partway through, my 40 day Creativity Journey was a success. Although I was experiencing a lot of “contrast” (what Abraham Hicks calls those unwanted, annoying, bothersome things that sometimes get too much of our attention) for a while, I also gained momentum for both my designing/creativity and better attention to self-care. The latter has been an especially lovely surprise. I’m planning to write about the results in more detail sometime soon.
For now, here’s a project I’ve recently begun – posting “mock-ups” of my designs to Instagram, where I go by the name lalalamonique0. (Follows greatly appreciated.) You see, I’ve finally developed some confidence in my skills and have created several designs with which I’m quite pleased. And I want to give the viewer a vision of the home decor possibilities for each design. Each pattern shown in this post is available in my Spoonflower shop on fabric, wallpaper, and home decor products.
Last week was the first week of this project and was mainly focused on wallpaper.* The first five days are shown in the above gallery. Below are the links for each design or collection:
The last design, shown above, is one that’s just been put for sale in the last week, so it got a little extra attention. The three views each show a slightly different variation of the design, titled “Squarish Flowers” and these have their own collection at Spoonflower, with even more size variations available.
So that’s it for today. If you have any favorites, please leave a comment and let me know! Thanks for stopping by.
* Credit: Marsala Digital for all of the above wallpaper mock-ups.
Yesterday I finished my flower-a-day for a year “challenge”*! Even though they only took about 10 or 15 minutes each, it feels like a lot of daily creative energy has been freed up for other things. Am considering making an art print or poster as a celebration/memento.
Didn’t keep up with the posts about it, though, just to #184. (Links below.)
I’m back to my Creativity Journey after a couple days off due to digestive issues and a general feeling of unwell. It’s been a wake up call – to be more discerning about the food I eat, certainly. And after the first couple of days, it’s been feeling like a transitional state, too. A “caterpillar to butterfly” kind of thing.
What am I trying to digest? Information about the current state of things. Lots of data points and related opinions. What else? I feel like there is something and I don’t know quite what. Yet.
“Something is happening, but you don’t know what it is, do you, Mr. Jones?”
Unlike Mr. Jones, perhaps, I believe I will understand better at some point. Some subconscious part of me probably already does.
It’s occurred to me that I’m finding more purpose in my art. People are saying important things through their roles, people who have become more aware and have then ventured back in more unconventional ways. Nutritionists, scientists, etc. I can do this with my art to. Am doing it a little more each day.
Wishing everyone some (or a lot of) happiness or even joy on their journey today. If you are skeptical, I encourage you to take a peek and see if there is a little to find here and there. Like the flowers that grow in the cracks of the sidewalk.
This is yesterday’s drawing. Have been feeling a little under the weather, so today I did not do the Creativity Journey items and I only did part of them yesterday. Self-care comes first. Or at least that’s what I’m working towards.
I can’t remember exactly when I lost my voice, probably in my early childhood, perhaps age 5 or so. And, yes, I mean metaphorically.
I have an early memory of being outdoors – at some sort of summer party – and my mother scolding me for something I said. “You shouldn’t say things like that.” I don’t know if this is a true memory – I see it as an observer of both my mother and myself. In a way, it’s an accurate one.
As I grew, my learning expanded to other areas: the importance of being a “people pleaser,” how to be invisible in groups, and how to do well in school. Getting good grades gave me additional value in my family system. (I am not meaning to assign blame as I truly have gotten past that and into the area of forgiveness.)
There may have been a few times that I did speak out in the years between then and now. (I’m currently in my 50s.) I think they were quite rare. Because of my childhood “lessons,” it was almost always a beyond-scary proposition.
I have been concerned (read: terrified) of what others will think of me. Will they hate or abandon me because I don’t agree with them? I have also been concerned with making mistakes that I’d have a hard time correcting or sometimes even apologizing for. This is a weird one because I do often apologize – probably more than I need to, and yet there are other times I find it nearly impossible to do so. I have been concerned with making “stupid” statements. I have been concerned with not always appearing perfect down to my use of grammar, wording, spelling, or the Oxford comma 😉. I have been afraid of being “seen” – not being that invisible child anymore – because it is a huge unknown to me, be the outcome negative or positive.
And in these recent posts, I’ve delved into the area of expressing myself more and more, little by little. Before that, I had made some progress in not caring what others think. I did this by self-soothing and considering other perspectives. Then I realized that every time I entered a higher level mood state, I cared less than usual about others opinions. This was a nice thing to learn. With these blog posts, I’ve been walking around the edge of the lake, so to speak, and dipping my toes in here and there.
I still have far to go. I think my posts can be vague. There is more I feel I need to, or at least want to say. I think my viewpoint matters with respect to current events. Even if not, it’s important to be more open just for me and my personal growth.
It’s progress. And I want to go further with it. And I think that’s enough for today.
Thanks for “listening” and thanks for stopping by.